Seriously?!?...

Ok, I have to tell you something. Don't be mad at me, I'm an idiot I know. On occasion. Every now and then, I realize that I still really like that girl I was going out with. Yeah, I know right. I swear, I wasn't even trying to fall for her (not that I'm ever trying), and we were going out it didn't even seem like a big deal. For me it was more about winning attention and having someone to hang out with. It just so happened that I noticed when I was talking to her I felt like I could really open up around her, and if you know me, there aren't a whole lot of people I'm like that with. Right after that I was trying kind of hard to find people I would be far less interested in to hang out with, and that kind of worked. I met some cool people. The problem with that is that my attention span has a really short shelf life, and just don't meet people fast enough to keep it happy. I guess I'm okay with that cuz there's so much going on right now it's not like I'm in dire need of newness. I should learn to appreciate what I have, right? Anyway, I'll get over it I know, but it's just another piece of random chaos layered on these strange strange days.